I love this girl. No other words needed. No matter how much we fight or how much we do not get along. I love her. I want to spend of the rest of my life with her. I’m in love with her when she has her 3-in-the-morning-looking, as well as her 3-in-the-morning-breath. I can’t wait to fall asleep with her every night and wake up with her every morning. One thing that I told her my dad said is don’t put all your eggs in one basket, but I never told the other part which is unless you find a good girl who is willing to take care of you. I have found that amazing girl who is literally willing to take care of me. This weekend she stayed with me just to take care of me because i was sick. She went with me to the Urgent Care center and this makes me know that she’s someone i want to be with, But i’ve known this way before this weekend. She’s someone that when im with nothing else matters. We know how to laugh and have fun. We know how to spend a great time together. She told me we can live in Pittsburgh if she can get a husky and I told her we can stay in moorsville/Charlotte area if she really wanted to. I want everything to be with her and/or about her. I don’t want to live one day without her. We have created our own bucket list which I have never even thought about doing with anyone else and i dont even know where that thought came from, but i thought it was a pretty great idea. It’s something i am 100% serious about doing and adding to it as well. There’s a lot more I plan on doing with that book, but that will wait until later. 

This next upcoming weekend I am really excited for. She has to be the best girlfriend ever because she is attempting to buy me 20 different things because im turning 20 years old. She’s told me that these 20 different things are something about me that I like. i am really confused on what its going to be but i am so excited to find out what it is! She also bought me tickets to nascar. she does not seem like a girl that would go to a nascar race but its a birthday tradition that was started about 2 years ago and i am so glad that she has joined me in continuing the tradition because it will continue for a long time! I can tell she’s not a nascar fan though because she asked me if i wanted to sit in the suite seats and she has never been. I like that she is willing to try new things with me because I am as well with her. she is also willing to go to 2 country concerts with me! i dont know what made her want to agree to doing this but it will be lots of fun! 

She told me today that i was in her dream last night where we kissed on top of a rollercoaster and i know that is something that will happen this summer for sure because we are going to go to Busch Gardens and ride all the roller coasters and ill kiss her on every one!

This girl is everything i want and i am not willing to lose her. i am going to fight to keep her because i am so much in love with her. She is the one that i see me spending the rest of my life with. i told her last night that i have thought of a date to purpose and a cute way to do it! i cant wait for that date to come! i am very excited to see what the future holds for us and i know its going to be for the best. 

Clara Grace Friedl, Baby Benjamine…….Friedl, Suzie Joe Friedl, Southpark/Pittsburgh/Charlotte/Moorseville/Iowa, theres many different things we’ve thought of and I can’t wait for all of it to happen!

….Hasn’t changed much in the past, just grown a lot more. We made it three months, one day, and still going. I can’t stand to be without her, but she lives in Moorseville and me in Charlotte and with gas being $3.81 a gallon I cannot see her as much as I would like.

I miss being in college with her. I don’t miss the classes or the really bad cafeteria food, but I do miss spending every night holding her. I do miss seeing her whenever I was not in class or had something to do for ΣΑΕ. Which brings up my next point…

Pledging. I loved my pledging process, but I know it put a strain on our relationship. however, i said from day one of an eight week process, we will make it through this process and making us much stronger. I believe that is true. we learned how to spend time apart from each other, although now I hate the time apart now.

Over the summer I’m working third-shift and working a lot. I think its so cute and I love that she stays up because its really the only time we can talk.

I know i’ve made some really dumb mistakes in the past and I would go back and change them in a heartbeat, but i can’t do that and i know i have to live with them. She has worked with me through all of them and i love her so much for that. i am going to do better.

I’m thinking about a promise ring for our 6 month/19th birthday gift. August 8th/12th. I know I still have a lot of time to think about this, but if it i had the money i would go out right now and buy it. a promise ring is a big deal for me because i think its promising for another ring in the future, with my girl, a lot more expensive ring.

I want to give her everything she wants. i want to spoil her. and i love her so much. we created a bucket list together and that to me is a type of promise its just not in a ring form. I want to spend the rest of my life with this girl. she has been there for me when i needed someone to cry to or talk to. her beautiful face always cheers me up. i love waking up next to her. she always looks at me and says hey baby in the cutest way possible. I look forward to smashing glass at our wedding even though my grandma would flip. I have plans when I grow up but every plan I think of I see her there with me. we alway talk about where we’re going to live…Pittsburgh, and what kind of house were going to have. even as far as kids names and wedding colors…Royal Purple, Old Gold. This may seem a little excessive for someone that has been dating only 3 months, but i know this is the girl i want to be with. she is the girl of my dreams she has everything i love about her. and i don’t want to lose her. from the stupid things i do. i would and will give anything for her because i love her. i want to see her happy. i have gone as far in this as thinking of how i want to purpose to her. i know its not going to happen for a few years but i want that moment to be perfect and i’m a planner. i’ve looked at rings that i will never be able to afford trying to think of a way to but a $202,400 ring for her because it doesn’t even begin to show how much i care and love her.

I’ve always said i will do anything in reason for her and that stands true to this day. I have changed a lot since day one. i don’t do a lot of what i used to do. i haven’t drank since the weekend i messed up. not even one beer. and she says i don’t have to do that, but its because i want to do it. she is my world and my everything and i would give up anything for her.

I love you baby:)

I love how we breath as one at night. I love how she says she can’t fall asleep without me. I love how she’s the last person I see before I go to sleep I love how she’s the first thing I see when I wake up in the morning. I love our random conversations when she turns over at 3am. I love her being the first person I talk to in the morning. I love how she wants me to hold her until she falls asleep. I love how me being around her cheers both of us up. I love how we heart each other. I love our goofy jokes between us. I love how random we can be together. I love how we laugh together. I love how we always smile around each other. I love how we watch tv shows together. I love how we start with slow steps, like a hamster, before another animal. I love how we plan for things far in advance. I love how text each other we miss the other when we just left. I love being the one she wakes up next to. I love being the one she falls asleep next to. I love how we never go to bed mad at each other. I love how we can talk through things and not fight. I love our relationship together and, I love how Im falling far in love with her:)

Heart you baby<3

Plain and simply put I have fallen for her 100%, there is nothing in me that has doubts about that. There’s nothing in me that doesn’t trust her 100%: she has shown me that she can tell me everything no matter how minuscule or large it may be. We do nearly everything together and there’s nothing about that I want to change, when we get irritated with each other we talk about instead of fight about it. We laugh and have fun together. There’s not a thing I wouldn’t do for her. Anything from holding her while she falls asleep to driving her home one weekend for her nephews 2nd birthday. We recently met each others families and I love the background she comes from, it makes me understand more of who she is and why she’s is how she is. I met all four sisters and when they interrogated me, as most sisters would, I enjoyed proving to them that I wanted to be with her. Her father gave me an application as a joke but I gladly filled it out. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for her as long as its in my power to do so. She recently went with me to meet my grandparents which is a huge step because they mean everything to me and no girl has ever come close to meeting them. She unexpectedly met my mother and stepfather which also no other girl has. As she lays next to me facing me asleep she looks so beautiful and happy and I love seeing her that way. Someone once told me she’s not what you want, but she is everything I want and so much more. I remember the time I first told her I had a thing for her, I was so scared because I didn’t want to get rejected, but looking back now Im so glad I did. I never thought it would end up like this, it was a rough road but it got us here and im very happy with how things are. I remember our first kiss lying on her bed. It wasn’t the most normal first kiss but it was great. I knew she was who I wanted at that moment. We both have made mistakes but we are working on bettering our already amazing relationship. Im excited what the future holds but also scared. Scared of the summer and her moving an extra 30 minutes away from the already 30 minute drive, but no matter what I know we will make it work!